Speechless

Speechless

It seem that u are determined to move on. I have nothing to stop u. Helpless but it your choice. So gotta respect it. I know what kind of person u are. So so be it bah.

I will do what I still believe in. So let see what time will do in our future. Never judge a book by it cover.

ALJH

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A girl asked her boyfriend, : "if love is full of pain, why do we always fall in love." Her boyfriend answered, : "We fall in love again and again because we know that Underneath all is pain there is happiness. "

A girl asked her boyfriend, : "if love is full of pain, why do we always fall in love." Her boyfriend answered, : "We fall in love again and again because we know that Underneath all is pain there is happiness. "

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Now and then.

Now and then.

There is so much and question I wanted to do and asked. But now, I really don't know which one should I do.

Girl, I have been trying hard, ever since we broke up. Don count the Christmas in k. :( I have been desperately wanting u back. And trying my best to show u the better me. And even when there are other competition wooing u, I also dont mind giving u suggestion for your courtship with them. Waiting and waiting for each guy to fail. And finally, I thought that I have a chance, I haven even do much thing, u told me that we are impossible. And how am I suppose not to be sad ?

I am sure u have see my changes, I am sure u can feel my strong feelings for you. All the things i have done to win u back, and it just need one day. One day to spoil and ruin my months of hardwork. It like, I thought finally I have climb out of this hole, with all my tears, blood and sweat. And in the end, u kick me back into the hole. And this time is more worse. I break my legs.

The things I want, I really will put in effort to get it. Not just u girl. So y you just see all my bad deeds again ? I know I am all wrong. But that is all last time, right ? I changed ? Right ? Even during the breakup, I also still trying to create good memories for us during this period of time. So why ?

I know u didt ask me to wait for you, you ask me to move on. But after I done these things for us, all I want is being recognize and a chance. But u can't even tell me that maybe we next time got chance. U just ask me to move on. Do u know how that feels ? Am I really that suck to the core till I can't even turn the tides now ?

I already don't know what to say. And I dont know what can I give to u. Cause I don't know what u need anymore. Or maybe u don't even need me anymore bah. Haha, I can imagine u whacking my head when u read this. I dont wana to be just a friend. I want to be wanted. tell me that I am being needed.

As days goes by, There will be more guys that wanting to know u and jio u. Club or what. I just hope u will really think through before u want to get serious with any of them. I don't want to see u doing the same mistake.

Girl, u think, if I want to be with u again, I shld do better this time and rather then doing the same mistakes bah. Right ? If I can't even control and do the same mistakes to u, then What for I win u back man ? Ad what for i have been waiting for u and doing so many things to win u back ? And I am not those revenge guy k. Was really upset when u told me that u scare that I was those revenge type. So I do so much things just to revenge. That is fucking stupid.
or girl, u can't take me seriously and thought all the things I do was just a joke ?

For now, i really don noe what i can do And I will just stay by a corner then. And just wait. Maybe one day, after all my waits. I get a chance to prove myself again. And girl, when u have the courage to step into our relationship again. Tell me k. Cause I will be ready for you. :):)

ALJH

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Facts...

Facts...

The truth is, I still love u alots. And nothing can do to lessen it or wat. Guess it will take time bah. But I myself noe tat, we might not be together again. Even I still love u, u will never be the same girl I once love so much. And I am not the one anymore.

Just hope that u are happy. That is all that matters. And don't say let fate do the job. Fate can do what ? When the human is not even trying at all ? Fuck fate man.

I will still be here, holding the name ALJH. Remember our 5evers. And maybe time might bury us into history. And let it be forgotten or put in a corner where nobody will noe.

And fk god man. Don let bj suffer the same things man. He is not even half a bad ass like me. So stop it, I will take his burden if I had too. Fk u god. _|_ now I noe why I never want to believe in you.

Who noes, maybe I might still have a chance. And I don't want to be your bro man. That is like the worst case scenario.

20 days for kl ? 9 years for me ? Lol.

One life one chance.
No pain no gain.

Y am i still so optismistic ? :):) crazy ass...

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Long day,,,

Guess u will be SMS kl and tell him I piss u off bah. Very tired... Morning run, then walk so far to mrt from safti then go tattoo shop. Haven rest at all. Fking blur. And I noe that u make u angry, cause I am so tired. ... I just gotta suck it up bah. Really want to chat with u till u reach airport. But it seem that I have ruin everything. And hearing things that I don wana hear just make me hard to concentrate. So u are happy cause u have Yvonne toy ? ... ... Things are happening faster then I can cope now. Guess I have to grab some rest now, before I cock up again bah. Just hope that you are healthy. :)

ALJH

Np,Ng

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Thks...

Thks...

I am glad, that " I " pulled myself awake. And manage to see the message. Maybe this is fate bah. :):) kl is like wl. So easily change target. Zzz...

Sleep tight my lazy girl. See la, lie on floor till fever Liao. Better tc of yourself. Missing u le girl. Sweet dreams k. :)

ALJH 5ever. I will and want to tale care of u 5ever. :):)

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Bad feeling...

Bad feeling...

Girl, thks for spending your day with me. I enjoy it alot. I hope u enjoy too. As in really happy. Not just want to pity me then tell me de.

Got this really bad feeling. I am
Afraid after this night, u are already attached le. Maybe I am right ? Maybe I am Wrong. He had been taking that both of u together le, you say u will be taking slow. But I noe u girl, if he do the right thing tonight. Hold your hand, send u back home. Kiss u on your cheek or lips. U will be attached by tml.

But of course I hope that tonight he say something wrong, or do something wrong. And u noe that both of u are not fit to be together. But as current situation , it shld the other way round bah. I have no confident of myself. Of course. Cause I noe u are tired of me le. Everytime giving chance an wait. But I just keepnon never give wat u want. It is all my fault. How I hope time can stop. Just today, or just reverse to today morning again and just restart the day.

Haizz... Did I do well today ? Do I earn myself a delay or a chance or nothing. I ask myself and I wonder. Crap. Feel like crap now. Feel like laughing out loud, laugh at myself. Feel like taking bino and see u walking home anot, wether he sending u back anot. I won't be waiting at your place le. I can't do tat all the time. I won't be riding my bike around seng kang and see where u all slack. Cause u and candy might already not at sk le. Going other places, that y u get to meet kl. Thinking lots of shit again.

Let see how many is right and how many is wrong k.

Will tml be better? Will u wake up and enjoy my day again ? Or just a new start in my life again? It is so happening man. My current life. Haha...

ALJH. Hoping everything is going the way I want it. :(:( expect the unexpected. ... Zzz ...

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