Conclusion...

Dear... even though i am busy at times... but no matter wat u will be always be my first piroty... U are my everything now... i cant even imagine wat i will be doing now... if i didt stead with you... everything will be different... i don even think i will be as happy as now... i dont wan u to think u are a burden to me k... and don wan to meet me or call me... cause i will no matter wat fork up time for u der... so don think u r a burden k... i rather u help me with my things... ^^ or give me moral support... i rather u do tat then think that u are a burden... u will never be a burden to me... i love u so much... do u think u r my burden... lol... think about it... stand in my shoe and think... wat if u are doing alot of things... and i think i am a burden... lol... get my picture... Dear... u are too precious to me... so don think too much k... even since i decide to be with u... i already put u at my first piroty... so please... don think too much k... ^^ i may have alot of things now... but i will be the one living with u in the future leh... u think which is more impt ??... i rather think others things are burden k... rather then u... lol...

And i noe u wan to noe when i decide to give u my everything rite ??... lol.. sorry don noe how to phrase it... actually to be frank... when the first time i see u cry... u remember ??... when u heard the bad new from your friend... when i see u cry for the first time rite... i have already told myself i will not make u cry... and i will do my best to give u all the happiness i can give... that is when i had already made up my mind to give u my everything... Although till now... i still make u cry... haizz... don noe wat i say the day before yesterday... and tat day when i didt finish my sentence... and some many times... even dream... i make u cry... haizz... sorry k dear... but i will continue to do my best to make u the most happiest girl... u are my everything... u let me know tat i am cute... u let me know how to be able to 守护 the girl i love most... u let me know tat love is not everytime a dead end... u let me be a new me... u let me see my future... u are my everything... i wont say you are my sun in the winter or wat... i think tat is stupid... all is 拍马屁... i rather tell u how i feel... i think tat is more real... ^^ Dear i love you... Be happy k... ^^

The battle of angel and devil... and... dont judge the book by it cover...

Sometime i just don understand... whether i wan to or i don wan to... sometime i feel like i shld do this but i just don noe y i cant do it... it like i wan to but my body don let me... is it my sub conscious controling me ??... I wanted to be jealous but then i cant... but when i don wana to be jealous but then i kept on felt the jealous... it like very hard to control... y is tat happening... zzz... i noe tat he is my bro... bt then why i feel tat??... it shld be ok wat... wat is making me started to be afraid... wat is in me tat making me losing trust... i don understand... but i don wan to be jealous of tat... it like wasting time... why i shld be thinking about tat... wtf am i doing...zzz... but is it my problem... is it really tat i thinking too much... or really is tat there is something on ??... i don wan to noe... i don wana think... but... he keep contacting her... why ??... my girl... my ex's... all... y ?? i don understand... maybe it really nothing... or maybe not...?? i don noe... and i don wana noe... all i noe is that i love my girl... i really don wana lose her... but i am afraid she will leave me... cause she will be tired... tired of waiting for me... i don wana tat happen... but i don wan her to leave me... it is all because of my fault... it is all mine... playing games... doing things slowly... if only i can reject my bros... but i don wan to be like aaron... it too hard to balance... am i doing the right things... i am thinking damn lots right now... i am afriad of competitors... too many guys... too many rival... too many thoughts... too many pressure... i may look ok... but it still pressure me alot... i may have confident... but i am still afraid of losing her... she is everything for me now... i cant think wat happen if she leave me... i cant think wat i can do in the nights without chatting with her on phone... i cant think how can i live on without seeing her sms everyday in the morning... i cant think... i really cant... although i am once a pig and an asshole... but i am still being dumped by 3 girl be4... i don wan to lose this girl too... she is different with all my ex... i noe it... when i saw her... but i am afraid tat time... tat i will make a mistake again... but i am very glad now... tat i am with her... i didt make a wrong choice... and i can see our future... i planned all the things... it like all will be coming truth... but right now... i don wan to lose her... i don think i can find another girl like her... she is the one... i noe it when i first touch her hand... i can feel the warmth... i wan to be with her...

i don always say this... but i miss her everyday , every hour every sec... i wan to bring her with me... but i am afraid she don use to it... and she got her things too... Dear... i really love you... and i will love you forever...

Hmm...

It 3rd month for us ler... now waiting for 4th month for us... cant wait for it... wan to make couple ring with my dear...

Sain... got a problem... I must let my dear feel my love... she said she cant feel it sometimes... i don understand y... but then i now somehow already noe why ler... i let her wait for me too long... and like don care about her when i am doing my thiings... she now not feeling good... so i don disturb her now... but then i now felt very bad... like got lemon juice on my heart... everytime i heard she tell me this... we like just normal friend... like not stead... i have used to it ler... i jiu immeditaly stone mood... like everything around me stop... felt very bad and somehow hurt... i though i have done my part... yet it is like still back at square one... i now desperatly wan to solve it... but it seem i have been going on the wrong direction... things shld be the same for her now... all i wan is to let her be happy... yet i am the problem from letting happy.... i need this help now... i need this ans... i need to understand wat is " i am u, u are me. "

I know i love her... but if she cant feel it... WAT IS THE POINT ??... zzz... i am wondering... am i a idiot or wat... y i just cant understand... and solve it right away... Y am i so stupid... zzz... Stoning... but then stone cant solve my problem... Y ? Y ? Y? Y cant i understand... My mind is going blank... like my brain don have any solution for this problem...

Fk man... feel like banging my head on the wall...

Dear... all i wan to say is... I love u and i care for u everyday... i hope u noe it and can feel it...