Confused

Thinking alot of things. Y did u call me on thru to tell me that ? Did en tell you ? Or did read m blog ? And did u really don love me anymore ? I shld say u forget me so fast ? How did u do that ? I really wonder. Continue your life, and change alots. Going home later, almost every night. Drinking alots. And hang out with lots of guys. Y is this happening ? It is not tat i can control anything. But Y did u change so much ? And so fast. I am really puzzeled. U are not the girl i noe anymore. 3 weeks only. Or is all this planned ? I really don noe. So many questions again. I really don wan to give up on you. Cause i noe tat i really love you. But y are u doing all these? I am really depressed, and yet u still can do all this like nothing had happen before. Is this all your revenge or the punishment i had to take ?

Or all this is just i thinking too much ? I really hope i can woo u back some day. But now, even as a friend. Like you say, you are avoiding me. Saying that your shedule is tight and other stuffs. I really don noe le. I am tired and sick. I just hope tat i can go back to before i went to wallaby.
Now, All i can wish is, I can meet u like a normal friend. How can i move on, When i am still in love with you. This is killing me. I am so stress and pain till i feel like cutting myself. Zzz... so tempting. I need to feel real pain.

I just hope, as my birthday wish. I noe i cant have u back as a gf. But at least, a friend. I mean really damn it a friend. At least i still can care for u or noe your status all those. Is it really difficult ? Azlin ?

If u really don hate me, then don ran away from me. If i never love you so much, will i still suffer now ? I never regret being with you. I only regret that i cant make you stay. But please don leave me and my world a mess. Damn it man. If only u can noe my real feelings. How much i wish tat u can be able to let me speak. Typing all these is not helping at all. AZLIN !! PLEASE... ... I really hope i can " die " now. Zzz...

Crying
Regretfull

ALJH What is the wish u wish for ? and never come true ?