I really don Noe.

I really don Noe. How u do it. I Noe I am not with you. Yet wat u say in the past and wat u doing now is all different. All this drinking, not going home, and stuffs. So u have done it with him, so does that mean u love him ? That wat u say to me in the past.

This is killing me. So I am waiting here for you. I Noe u didt ask me to wait. But is this wat I am waiting for?

Slapping my own face. Wake up from this nightmare. Tell me that all this is not true. Tell me that this is just a bad dream.

So wat I have to do now? I really don Noe. Guess that everything I can accept, yet only "that" I can't accept. This is hell. I can't sleep. It just keep running in my mind. This is so painful. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I am really lost now.

And u had been suffering of this for so long ? I really wonder wat I done to let u feel this way. All because of trust and insecurity? But I say I will never leave you. And i noe even for now it is still the truth. So wat do I have to do now? Wish that u are happy ?

This is worse then I thought. I don Noe wat to say or type le. My mind... And heart...

I need pain badly.

hearing your voice is one thing, listen to wat u say is another thing.

Aljh

You are like a kite, that I have let go to fly. But I have left a string tie to you. Flying is wat u want, that y I let u go. Yet out there, there is lot of rain and sun, u change your colour. But I still hope that when I reel u back or one day when u fly back u are still the kite I love. I really hope so. But will the string snap and u fly off with the wind? I really don Noe, the string is so thin and weak. I don mind the rain and sun, but I am still here. Holding the string tightly and tie it to my finger. Hoping that one day, it will be back.

There is only good ending in fairy tales right ? How I wish that I am in the story book now.

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