Regrets

3rd day of our break, It still hurts me like hell. Watching all my older posts and my photos. I realize it. I never ever been a good boyfriend at all. Never, ever since we stead. Y ? Y am i so ... . I already don noe wat to say. I am not boyfriend material. Didt i change ever since ? Am i really so weak ? My heart and mind. I cant sleep or eat well. Is all these punishment ? If these are all punishment, I will take it !! But do i get a chance ? To get everything back ?? Tell me, please. These is the first time, in my life. Tat i wish tat there is a god. Can u tell me wat to do. I noe it is too late, but i still love her. Love her damn lots, She is my world. Can i use my whole world to exchange for her ?? TELL ME PLEASE. I am really suffering. Suffering man. First ever time, I wanted to cry. Cry everything out. Shout and scream everything out. But i cant. I dont noe how. All this pain, i wan to let you noe. But how can i let you noe ??

I want to let you rest. Really baby. But i also really scare tat u change and never come back. Leaving me behind, and get swallow in the darkness. You really pull me out from the darkness once, but now. Are u going to throw me back ? Let me go to the deepest darkness ? I already can see all your changes. Going back late, Drinking more. Are all these wat u wanted to do ? And finally u get to do all these ? I really want to know. How the hell i can noe ? So wat i have your fb acct and msn ? I cant even noe wat u are thinking. I don even noe how am i going back camp. I really don noe wat am i going to do. Just for tml, I already don noe wat am i going to do. Everything in me just go hay wire. My whole body. So does't this mean i really love you so much ?

All those old post and old photos really bring all the memories back man. And even now, everything tat i see, do and remembered, all just keep telling me that u are the one. But how ? How can i win you back ?

Do u really regret teaching me how to read the code ?

Can i ever win you back ? Please tell me. Please. I just need a ans.

Cried ? YES

ALJH