All wrong...

All wrong...

My tarots card reading ask me to be calm for today.

And did I do the right thing ? Tell me girl. Today just SMS-ing you only. Did I do right ? We didt talk in phone at all and our SMS is short and quick. And I don even noe wether u finish your project already anot.

What did I do wrong ? When and why ? I shld not ask u wether wat time u end sch today? All I want, is to noe and plan. Noe wether I can meet u anot and plan with my bookout timing. And everything just goes wrong after that SMS ? When u reach home yesterday before sleeping. We are still ok. Right ? Or am
I too overconfidence again ? We just get to meet one weekend a everything just turn back to square one. Again ? Wat did I do wrong this time ? Tell me please. U are avoiding me. No calls, short SMS and no meet ups.

So now, everything is one sided ? So are u telling me that your feelings is fading again?

Y am I upset ? Cause I really want to put in effort, and I don't get to show you. And am I really forcing you to meet me ? Since when ? Is wat is say ? Or wat I text then is gu lan ? U gotta tell me girl.

With you now like this. I can't talk to u, or even text to u about this. Cause we will only end up back to square one. Or even worse. U gotta let me try and not let me die. Or is your feelings fading away. Till is gone soon ? So all the talking before the chalet and the weekend we spent is all nothing ?

What is in your mind ? U gotta tell me. Let me noe. I feel very lonely here. Is like I am alone. Waiting for someone, but actually is all my I imagination.

Girl, am I somebody in your heart ? Or a nobody ?

So many problems... My bro, my camp mates. The hk trip. But all I wan is to settle our relationships first. All I want to get u back first. That all I want and need.

Girl, I ask u one question k. When u look at our photos, how do you feel? Just ans me this k. I have my ans. But I want to hear yours.

Oh god, when then I can prove to you, show to you that I care ? All the goals I set, and the deadline I made. All is bullshit. My calculations can't win fate.
I losing faith. Will u be there to hold my hand ? Can I reach out for you hand ? I hate cold and dark places.

This sucks. I want to noe your thoughts. Is there a 5ever for us? U are losing faith too ? Right?

ALJH. <3 u girl. Swear to god and cross my heart.

I just want my fairytale to end with a " and they live happily ever after ".

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