I can't scream, I can't shout, I wan pain and I wan to see blood. No more 忍. I wan to vent this anger. Wat can I do, can someone tell me. Ccb. This is maddness. _|_ I cannot revenge, I must find another way to vent it out. No more cry or tears. This is different. This feel fk up man. _|_ ahhhh........ Deep breath does't help !!! I won't call you, I don't want to look weak in front of u any more. This is stupid and redunden. Fk la.

I hate to be me, wat have I become? Is this the best I could ? I shld change now. If not, just let me had a big bang in my head, and let me forget everything. Let me restart everything for me. This is so painful, all those bad dreams, bad feeling, images of you clubbing, knowing new guys, drinking clubbing. I Noe u, but u have change. So I don Noe u le. Letting me Noe new girls? ask me go clubbing? Playboy ?since when I have been playing girls feelings, have flings all around. I noe myself. Zzz... So I am like this ? In your mind ? This is so painful. Salts on wound. I don have u anymore for support. I can only stand up. And it time for me to choose. No more Wishy washy. Fk la. This is so fasturting... I need time to pass fast, everything is too slow le. Zzz... ...

I have to plan everything. Zzz...
I am still me, can't let anger overcome me. Zzz... Love can't do anything at all now. Zzz... I won't tell anyone. I must depend on myself. Zzz... Like my older self. So much thing, so much responsibility. This feeling suck. Thoughts and thoughts.

Fk facebook, fk twitter. _|_

U regret telling u my thoughts. My dream. My feeling. All these thing back fire me. Making me more and more far away from u. I won't and don wan to lose u anymore. I will just zip my mouth. And think and work to win u back first.

If I still lose to other guys again. Then I will have to wake up my idea le. Zzz...

I hate losing...

Aljh. No pain, no gain.

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