Waiting patiently

Things are really going wrong in our relationship. And i noe that we are going to no way. Cause i never ask for patch and i never make any effort to woo u back. I noe u haven been sleeping well lately, solving friends problem too.

I really noe tat i am doing this at a wrong timing. And how much u have hated me as u had given me chances and chances. Square 1 , Square and square 1. I am sick and tired of the aquare le. I noe tat u are tired of it too. So i have seriously sit on my bed and think of a way, to procced on to " square 2 ". If not, we are going to no way and u are tired of waiting le.

My main problems are lazy, all say no do, not caring enough, not romantic enough, selfish, insensetive and inpatient. So i have think of a way, like a formula for me to follow with, so that i can use and follow wat i want and wanted to do, and make sure that i will do wat i say. And one more thing is that i will noe how do i do that day. I noe our problem is always " small matters " Stacking over another. Till it is big and unable to cover anymore. So before evey night, i send u home. I will ask u how i did during tat day. And i will note it down, good or bad, and wat is the problem that day. So i have a records of all my wrong doings and i can remind myself, wat thing to be change, or do better. Using my i phone. Cause i will be using my phone everyday.

That is my first plan, self reminder. Secondly, i noe that our problem is that, in our love life. It is too boring le. Everytime stay at home. Doing nothing but watching show and sleep. I noe i am always the lazy one, always lazy to go out and plus forgeting wat we planned, that we want to do. U are bored, and u are changing now. And u really wan to get a life. Clubbing, night life, at night go for supper and stuffs. So i have planned out a list of things that we once have said that we wanted to do and wrote it down on my iphone le. although it jsut a draft. But i seriosusly think the whole process through from the start i pick u from your home and stuff and continue the whole trip till the end. I really put my heart into the palnning and will make it even better. And i have make it a rule that every book out, i will bring u out for at least one day. As now friday is half day for me. I can make good use of saturdays and sundays. So The whole planning formula, i think i can make it better. I noe that u wont wan to think of me for the coming days, so i will make use the time to think of a better way to excute each task.

I have really tired of my own excuses, And i myself noe tat i am lazy. It like the death penaltym Knowing wat is wrong, yet i still kept on doing. I noe u are changing girl. But i really hope that one day, u can change back into the girl that hold me that tight and never let me go. And the only way to achieve that, is to doing to same thing to you. Give u my best. So i can recieve your best too. You may think that all the thing i type are crap bah. But all i wan is just a date k, to let me prove that i actually is putting my heart and soul to plan these things and prove it to u that the date will be awesome, and that i am really wanting to woo u back. I have feel the pain before le. And that is gona stop. Only i hold on to my future, and i dont wan to regret next time. I wan to live my life to the fullest, Just like wat u say, Love like tml is going to be the last day.

For now i will not disturb u k. I noe u really need the time, and i cant rush anything too. And i really have to get well asap. Bad to worst. I really wonder when then can i contact u. Or will u contact me ? how i hope we can still talk on phone and noe wat u have doing during the days. Fianlly get wat i want !! But i just let it go. I must take it back and hold it tight, i swear. Till my last day, cause i noe that. Seriously girl, You are the one. And i am glad that i get to noe u during that valentine day. U are seriously my only valentine. Hope u can just let me prove to u k. I am really doing and planning things for myself. All those bad and lousy habits gotta change or go.

May god bless me.

ALJH. No Pain, No Gain.