Now and then.

Now and then.

There is so much and question I wanted to do and asked. But now, I really don't know which one should I do.

Girl, I have been trying hard, ever since we broke up. Don count the Christmas in k. :( I have been desperately wanting u back. And trying my best to show u the better me. And even when there are other competition wooing u, I also dont mind giving u suggestion for your courtship with them. Waiting and waiting for each guy to fail. And finally, I thought that I have a chance, I haven even do much thing, u told me that we are impossible. And how am I suppose not to be sad ?

I am sure u have see my changes, I am sure u can feel my strong feelings for you. All the things i have done to win u back, and it just need one day. One day to spoil and ruin my months of hardwork. It like, I thought finally I have climb out of this hole, with all my tears, blood and sweat. And in the end, u kick me back into the hole. And this time is more worse. I break my legs.

The things I want, I really will put in effort to get it. Not just u girl. So y you just see all my bad deeds again ? I know I am all wrong. But that is all last time, right ? I changed ? Right ? Even during the breakup, I also still trying to create good memories for us during this period of time. So why ?

I know u didt ask me to wait for you, you ask me to move on. But after I done these things for us, all I want is being recognize and a chance. But u can't even tell me that maybe we next time got chance. U just ask me to move on. Do u know how that feels ? Am I really that suck to the core till I can't even turn the tides now ?

I already don't know what to say. And I dont know what can I give to u. Cause I don't know what u need anymore. Or maybe u don't even need me anymore bah. Haha, I can imagine u whacking my head when u read this. I dont wana to be just a friend. I want to be wanted. tell me that I am being needed.

As days goes by, There will be more guys that wanting to know u and jio u. Club or what. I just hope u will really think through before u want to get serious with any of them. I don't want to see u doing the same mistake.

Girl, u think, if I want to be with u again, I shld do better this time and rather then doing the same mistakes bah. Right ? If I can't even control and do the same mistakes to u, then What for I win u back man ? Ad what for i have been waiting for u and doing so many things to win u back ? And I am not those revenge guy k. Was really upset when u told me that u scare that I was those revenge type. So I do so much things just to revenge. That is fucking stupid.
or girl, u can't take me seriously and thought all the things I do was just a joke ?

For now, i really don noe what i can do And I will just stay by a corner then. And just wait. Maybe one day, after all my waits. I get a chance to prove myself again. And girl, when u have the courage to step into our relationship again. Tell me k. Cause I will be ready for you. :):)

ALJH

Sent from my iPhone